Sunday, July 13, 2014

Wandering around . . .I think about what I should be writing in my blog. Something intelligent or brilliant and letting my friends and family know what is happening in my life. Maybe some witty funny observations.... only somehow time passes and my blog remains silent. Comments from visitors here inspire me, they also remind me that I have a blog and need to update it at times. It's all well and good to have imagination, but mine seems to have disappeared since January 2013. The worst year of my life - it was in January when I had a fall and broke my two lower vertebraes. And then of course I had total hip surgery and then a few months later, my husband was diagnosed with cancer. Terminal. I plan grand art pages but life gets in the way..... or does it? I suppose when 'life gets in the way, it is just normal and blogging is just the extension of it. I decided to treat the blog just like a journal. Just writing down inconsequential thoughts and how I feel about what might be happening in my life. I find myself struggling like a fly when it's caught in water trying to get out of it - gasping for breath. It is now seven weeks since Mario was admitted into palliative care - an eternity to both of us. Nobody ever told us just how bad it can get and dear God, this is only just beginning. Well, not really but I have a feeling that it is going to get much much much worse.

I have joined 'Wellspring'.


I bought a gelli plate
sometime ago and
played around with it,
but then life interfered
and I forgot all about
it. Maybe one day
my 'mojo' will
really come back?
oh, and then I read about
using salt and stuff and
went out and bought Kosher
salt. And this was the result.
Of course that's just doing the
ground work. And maybe
soon I will add some stencil
or other bits to it.
someday, in the future?


DogArtist said...

I am glad you are blogging. I didn't think you were in the computer let alone here! I should have checked. I am sorry - for all the mess life sheds down on us. I know you are strong and will come through stronger. I miss you and miss your LOs and more. I will come back in to read tomorrow,this day has gotten away from me! I haven't blogged myself in eons it seems. Life does get in the way no doubt.
Hang in there Sabina - love and hugs all around. :D

Jeannette said...

Dear Sabina
Life has a way of coming as it pleases, no matter if we want it or not. However I think there is never a precise way to predict it. I think, no matter how hard it is now, it's best not to worry about how hard it is going to get. You see, things don't always get worse over night, it comes in time. Meaning you will grow in it too and therefore being able to handle it. Well that's what I hope for you, being able to handle whatever comes your way, trying to give it a place somewhere in your heart or mind and then when the time it right you can try to deal with everything that happened. Do I make a bit of sense here?
I can only hope that there are some, maybe not exactly happy, but memorable and special moments which you can share with your husband.
I wish you lots of strength and I'm sending positive thoughts toward you!
hugs Jeannette said...

Difficult to know what to say during this awful time for you. Sending you hugs and best wishes and positive thoughts.
Diane said...

Difficult to know what to say during this awful time for you. Sending you hugs and best wishes and positive thoughts.